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Just like anyone else.</p> </div>  <div id="content">  <div id="main"><div id="main2"> <h2 class="date-header">Thursday, May 24, 2007</h2>  <div class="post"><a name="3203123580900994428"></a> <h3 class="post-title"> I'm tired of giving a reason... </h3> <div class="post-body"> <div> <div style="clear:both;"></div>Why was I born autistic?<br /><br />Because I was.<br /><br />Why am I trans*?<br /><br />Because I am.<br /><br />I'm seeing the former running around, of late and, really, why DO I need to give a reason. I was not born to teach you any lessons. Sorry. I'm not around to let anyone hold to humility, I am not here for you. I'm not an inspiration, I'm not your demon, I'm me in all my lovely fuckedness.<br /><br />Really, though, what's the undertone of that question? 'All things have a reason, and I can't see this having any virtue in and of itself, so the reason must be something secret and occult, something I have to prise out from the world.' <br /><br />No. <br /><br />I refuse to think like that.<br /><br />Some things are their own reason. I am my own reason.<br /><br />Why was I born autistic?<br /><br />Someone's gotta be.<br /><br />Why was I?<br /><br />Because my dad's pretty aspie, my grandpa was pretty Aspie, and there are any number of people running around the old family tree who've got the traits coming out of their ears, and the genes just hit me just right.<br /><br />Why not?<br /><br />I especially dislike the bits that say 'I was born like this to learn a lesson!' both from the autistic side and from the trans side. Look, that implies reincarnation, because what's the point of learning a lesson only this one time? And if I've been reincarnated, then this life, hard as it is? Fucking Club Med vacation between the ones where I starved to death at four or died from some easily treatable disease or choked to death on dirty water.<br /><br />Not that I really believe in reincarnation.<br /><br />Also, hi, I'm still alive.<br /><br /><small>Title from: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WDg9TmsqUPQ">Manic Street Preachers - The Masses Against the Classes</a><div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div> </div> </div> <p class="post-footer"> <em>posted by Mat at <a href="http://just-like-anyone.blogspot.com/2007/05/im-tired-of-giving-reason.html" title="permanent link">5/24/2007 04:56:00 AM</a></em> <span class="item-control blog-admin pid-1380168333"><a style="border:none;" href="https://www.blogger.com/post-edit.g?blogID=28173247&postID=3203123580900994428&from=pencil" title="Edit Post"><img class="icon-action" alt="" src="https://resources.blogblog.com/img/icon18_edit_allbkg.gif" height="18" width="18"></a></span> </p> </div>   <div id="comments"> <a name="comments"></a> <h4>0 Comments:</h4> <dl id="comments-block"> </dl> <p class="comment-timestamp"> <a class="comment-link" href="https://www.blogger.com/comment/fullpage/post/28173247/3203123580900994428">Post a Comment</a> </p> <p class="comment-timestamp"> <a href="http://just-like-anyone.blogspot.com/"><< Home</a> </p> </div>  </div></div>   <div id="sidebar"><div id="sidebar2">  <div id="profile-container"><h2 class="sidebar-title">About Me</h2> <dl class="profile-datablock"> <dd class="profile-data"><strong>Name:</strong> <a rel="author" href="https://www.blogger.com/profile/08157110032181571303"> Mat </a></dd> </dl> <p class="profile-link"><a rel="author" href="https://www.blogger.com/profile/08157110032181571303">View my complete profile</a></p></div>  <h2 class="sidebar-title">Previous Posts</h2> <ul id="recently"> <li><a href="http://just-like-anyone.blogspot.com/2007/02/been-thinking-little-thoughts_25.html">Been thinking little thoughts...</a></li> <li><a href="http://just-like-anyone.blogspot.com/2007/02/yeah-ill-bet-you-wish.html">Yeah, I'll bet you wish</a></li> <li><a href="http://just-like-anyone.blogspot.com/2007/01/as-long-as-youre-not-dumb-enough-to.html">As long as you're not dumb enough to actually try ...</a></li> <li><a href="http://just-like-anyone.blogspot.com/2007/01/anyone-can-play-guitar.html">Anyone can play guitar...</a></li> <li><a href="http://just-like-anyone.blogspot.com/2006/05/they-ask-me-where-hell-im-going.html">They ask me where the hell I'm going?</a></li> <li><a href="http://just-like-anyone.blogspot.com/2006/05/so-story-begins.html">So the story begins</a></li> </ul> <a href="http://www.last.fm/user/ElJuno/?chartstyle=minimalDark"><img src="http://imagegen.last.fm/minimalDark/tracks/ElJuno.gif" border="0" /></a> <p id="powered-by"><a href="http://www.blogger.com"><img src="http://buttons.blogger.com/bloggerbutton1.gif" alt="Powered by Blogger" /></a></p>  </div></div>  </div>   <div id="footer"><hr /> <p> </p> </div>  </body> </html>